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虽然忙于工作
可是却还很想你。。
以为可以用工作来麻醉自己
不去想你
可是偏偏却还想你
这种心情到底什么时候才会停止
你又明白吗

hers

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tears finally drop down
maybe sometimes cares too much was unnecessary





12.37am
19-12-09

working time

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i'm really feel tired of working
really really
and feel stress sometimes
from the morning about 7am want to wake up
and back when finish my thing is around 12am already
everyday repeat the samething
to do this work everyday, need to swallow from others
have many unhappy things and the difficulties or interesting things
on working
want to share with my dear friends
but feel disturbing
feel like no one can listen to me
i'm just feel long time din't talk much already

some of dear friends still sms me
but please forgive me that i no reply
i'm really no time to reply urs
but im still ok. dont worry.

tired

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i find other job already (=
now get training as waiter
the Boston restaurant(hong kong style) will opening soon on next tuesday
so recenctly we will be very buzy )=
today is first day training

originally i go interview with my friend
than we can work together lo
but today when our area supervisor start to explain about the work
she suddenly had exit. == lols
now left me only at there
but working only
i dont mind this la
luckily today i have know a new friend
she was pretty and nice la. haha
but i forget what her name ==
she has many experience on this
she teach me many things (=
thx ya. girl

i thought as a waiter only a normal job
what are the challenge do not
but untill today i only know that's NOT
many rule have to compliance. macam so formal
pity than when school life ==
somemore want to wear their uniform
i thought only a normal t-shirt and a pants
but NOT ==
must wear a hat ==
but we no yet know how the hat looking
and want to wear the apron+long pants with dark colour lagi
but the apron is the point. oh no.wt F*ck
i dont know what i will look like if i wear this
like a clown ==

hope not so bad that i think gua
today our supervisor describe the whole menu about drinks&food to us
i have to hafal the whole menu la. deng
cause tomorrow got test. )=
this few days only training
but tuesday start will be very buzy
our business hour is 10am-1am )=
so pity la.
maybe i will work for one year time
to save money for my next year hairdress course.

maybe will less time to online and blogging here )=
miss all my friends
REALLY..

7th of Dec

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finally spm is end
no more exam already
i'm gonna start working next wedneday (=
all my friends have their plans too

the SAD things is my HP SPOIL arleady in this important time )=
whole week no hp to use le. damn
already take to service
friday get back it (=
all who know me de friends no need contact me in certain time
but when i get back hp.
i will lose many of my fon contact number
friends who know me.
please contact me back k..

期待有一天 你会回头看看我

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昨天去了康乐的夜市来
1点多才回到家
至从和你分了后
我一直最不敢去的地方就是那里了
因为那里是最近你的家
我知道你会去那边
一路在车上的心情真的很糟糕
很紧张很怕，很不想遇到你
昨晚是我最不开心的一天
感觉很近你
可是心却和你有着很远的距离
在人潮拥挤的夜市里
我的视线仿佛在寻找那熟悉的影子
可是却害怕面对
突然遇见你的朋友
我心里从那一刻起每一分每一秒都有着还怕的感觉
心想或许你也在附近？
希望寻找到你的影子
可是心里头却在挣扎
当时的心情又有谁会谅解
此中也没遇见你，或许对我来说也是件好事
可能昨晚我们有那一秒的擦肩而过？
只是我们的视线都互不在对方？
如果是的话，上帝真的很了解我 （=
在那喧闹和熟悉的夜市里
竟然播着失恋后我常听的那首歌？
太巧了吧
还是上帝想暗示我什么吗？
那一杀那勾起了许多回忆
那一刻我好想蹲下来。好想好想
在耳边喧闹的夜市
突然间变得怎么那么静了
我听不到喧闹的声音
耳边里只播着那熟悉的歌曲
回忆只藏在心里 永远永远


现在12月了
算一算的话，也就是9个月了
不看一看日期也不知道
我们分了9个月了
乎乎乎，9个月咧
是9个月。。要一年了噜
厉害吧。
时间过得真快。其实我很坚强！
真的很坚强，我也很佩服自己 （=
其实没什么大不了啊。
9个月里，我真的学会好多好多东西
还不赖嘛。。未必不是一件好事
至少看事情变得比别人看的更深入
也学会懂得自我保护在受伤前
不懂有时是否太过自我保护
而造成别人的受伤 对不起




我懂得了
*爱上一个人时
不一定要在一起
也更不应该开始*
不开始才不不会有悲剧的出现
而且记得一定要让对方寻找自己的幸福&快乐
我学会了聚合她 （=
而我选择了静悄悄的离开







write by_ WIN
12.20am- 4th of Dec

快乐？
不快乐？
谁来揭晓？